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I am I am
I am I am
I am a vessel of stone…Standing there quietly, waiting patiently.
Slowly the master chissels away, bits here and bits there
Sometimes it hurts, and I want him to stop.
He pauses for a while and then, delicately,
lovingly, he lifts his chissel.
After years in darkness, I can see light.
There is nothing above my head
but the starry night sky now.
My eyes drink in the sight
of blue and silver and gold.
Around me there is a liquid,
warm, thick, nourishing water,
softening colours and shapes.
I turn around, around my self,
around my Self, around…
Water fills the chalice,
all the way up
all the way down.
It comes from a source
deep in the ground
where the stars live also
welling up in the chalice
keeping me floating,
I am a vessel
of stone
White stone, Limestone
Under pressure


Something is changing within me. These last few weeks were awful. I felt like a heavy burden was on me, like I was wrapped in a thick blanket, cut off from the world. My heart was beating irregularly, fear, anger, irritation, everything seemed black.
Today I went for a walk and something shifted in me. I can’t put my finger on it, it seems so delicate, like a tip of the first snowdrops showing their little stems. I breathe differently, I walk upright again, there is hope in me…