Tag Archive: experience


Imbolc thoughts…

Every year I am surprised to have the same experience! Winter seems to go on and on and although I know that we need winter, cold, frost, dark, stagnation, death, rest… I long for spring. Every year I think that Imbolc comes too early, that nature is not ready yet. Every hear, just a day or two before Imbolc I see, hear, feel, smell, taste a difference that announces spring. Yesterday I walked for a long time and suddenly realised how the light had changed. The sky turned blue and white and pink and was suddenly bright and warm. Light cascaded down and I stopped and looked up, wondering what had happened. The sun was going down but this light shone from high above down on me… I just relished in the brightness and then continued to walk. Lots of puddles were there along my way, bright and shining with the light, reflecting the soft pink and white of the clouds and here and there bits of blue sky. There was a change in the smell of the air, a sweetness that hadn't been there all winter. Birds were chattering in the trees and bushes and I knew: Brighid has come… It is time to shed the old skin, to drop the dead weight on my shoulders, time to allow new growth, time to stretch and straighten my back and breathe deeply. Inspiration will come, healing is near, music and laughter can be heard in the distance. Brighid has come…

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Awareness

Yesterday I was talking to my friend about awareness. In my job and also in my private life, I find it difficult not to go into automatic gear and switch off… but I don’t want to do that. I want to be present, aware of what is happening, with me, in me… She suggested a few things I could do to bring myself back to the present moment. One is to stop for a few seconds every hour, on the hour, and say to myself “I am”. That sounded simple enough and I said I would give it a go! So I did! I started work at 12:00 and missed the 12:00 stop because I had to find out what was happening at work. Normal… At 13:00 I did stop and said “I am” and thought, well, that’s easy… Then I came to myself at 18:00, during my meal break, realising I hadn’t even remembered the hours in between! Of course, I was working, welcoming people, explaining, helping a new colleague, answering the phone, answering emails, doing a million and one things… and not once in between had I even remembered to check the time!
Of course, this is not a guilt thing, I knew I wouldn’t make it and that’s ok, the idea is just to observe oneself, watch what is happening. Nevertheless, I thought I would be a tad more aware than that…
Well, I’ll try again, today, when I’m at home. Will that be easier? In theory, yes, but I have my doubts :-/…